This is a memoir of the wife of the famous historian and publisher S.P. Mel"gunov - Praskov"ia Evgen"evna Mel"gunova-Stepanova (1881-1974). She studied philosophy at the Zurich University and later became one of the leaders of the party of National Socialists. Along with her husband she was exiled in 1922. She outlived her husband and published all his historical works and memoirs. This book includes her memoirs from WWI to 1920. Also available books by Mel"gunov, S.P. (Melgounov, S.P): Martovskie Dni 1917 (2006). Aleksandr I. Sfinks na Trone (2010); Kak Bol"sheviki Zakhvatili Vlast": "Zolotoi Nemetskii Kliuch" k Bol"shevistskoi Revoliutsii (2014).