Ever, These letters are often all that get me through week to week. Even if it"s just random stuff, nothing important, they"re important to me. Gramps is great, and I love working on the ranch. But... I"m lonely. I feel disconnected, like I"m no one, like I don"t belong anywhere. Like I"m just here until something else happens. I don"t even know what I want with my future. But your letters, they make me feel connected to something, to someone. I had a crush on you, when we first met. I thought you were beautiful. So beautiful. It was hard to think of anything else. Then camp ended and we never got together, and now all I have of you is these letters. S**t. I just told you I have a crush on you. HAD. Had a crush. Not sure what is anymore. A letter-crush? A literary love? That"s stupid. Sorry. I just have this rule with myself that I never throw away what I write and I always send it, so hopefully this doesn"t weird you out too much. I had a dream about you too. Same kind of thing....