Direct realization versus love and devotion for God with form - are these two paths mutually exclusive? David Newman (Durga Das) tells of an unexpected inner journey that led him to ask himself: Was I leaving my devotional path behind, or was the pursuit of a conclusive spiritual awakening the very revelation that the path itself had indicated? David"s journey started with what he calls a "lightning bolt", which led him to question his own identity. With heart-warming honesty, he relates how the integration of the two paths came about through unwavering grace. "What I was initially most afraid of ultimately brought the greatest gift".